Even in the hard times

I’m thankful that when there are days or even just a few hours that are hard that there are people to talk to or even just to be around.


4 Weeks

Instead of trying to go back a couple of weeks and tell ya’ll about everything from those weeks, I’m just going to start from here. It’s really hard to believe that on Monday I will have been here for 4 weeks. A friend from work and I are going out to celebrate. I’ve just been trying to focus on settling in, keeping up my grades and meeting new people. Oh I’ve met so many new people! Names upon names upon names. It’s been a little funny when one of the few people I know from up here finds out that I’ve moved here. I went to a conference last weekend and when one of the speakers said hi, he asked how I had gotten up here for the conference. The look on his face was priceless when I told him I had moved here. Thinking about it still makes me laugh!

I’ve been skyping pretty consistently on Monday with everyone back home. Phoebe almost always causes me to tear up when she asks when I’m coming home. I miss all my neices and nephews so much. Tuesday I’ll watch the two youngest while Joe takes the oldest to Kid’s Club and Jessie will go shopping. I’ve been so excited to be able to go to Wednesday night meetings again. The chapel has been so welcoming which has helped with all the change. I started going to BSF on Thursday nights which on of my coworkers goes to as well. Youth Group is every other Sunday and on the opposite Sunday’s is Ladies Night. (I’ve only been to one of those so I’m not positive on the timing but I think thats correct.)

It’s been interesting how intertwined the circles of my life are. One typically has home, work, friends, church circles but mine are just a tad different. Several people at church work at the same company as me so those circles intertwine together. I live with a family that the husband works at the company and we all go to church together. One of my only friends works with me, goes to the same chapel and we go to BSF together. Everything is so wrapped together. In some things that is nice but it can make it hard to expand my groups and make friends. Does any of that make sense? I feel like I’m just babbling but that’s what has been going through my head the past week or so.

I’ve gotten into a schedule of who I call when which makes people smile when they hear about it. On my way to work I call mom, if I go get something for lunch I typically call Leah or dad, and then on my way home from work I call Elizabeth or ocassionally Samuel. Beka and I talk on Saturdays when we get our schedules to work together. I go grocery shopping on Saturday morning and then do school in the evening. I’ve purchased tickets for my next two trips back to Georgia which I’m pretty excited about. I’ll be back in mid October to take my midterms and again for Thanksgiving with the rest of the family.  Super thankful that I’m passing all my classes right now and I just found out that I have made a 100 on all of my Art Appreciation discussion topics which have been super hard for me. [Shoutout to my brother-in-law for your help!]  Jessie likes to go shopping so I’ve been enjoying having someone help me pick out some new pieces for my wardrobe. It’s been nice to have someone to talk fashion with. So with work having been a little slow it’s reminded me how much I love to organize. I went through and and got my desk all cleared off and organized. I’ve been learning QuickBooks which has had a learning curve to it. I have also been listening to a lot of podcasts so if anyone has any suggestions I’m totally open for them!

Some funny things from living with the Hawkinsons: When Judah learned how old I was (21) he response was “You’re 21 and you’re not a GRANDMA.” I wanted to laugh so hard. A couple of days earlier he had asked if I was older than his dad. This kid cracks me up. The boys have also told me that I am an honorary Hawkinson and they are super excited that I get to go to Hawkinson family Christmas. I am so thankful that I have so many people up here willing to take me in and make me feel at home. It makes the changes a lot easier.

BTW, we’ve had the first day of FALL!! So excited!!

Now if only it would feel like fall. I can’t wait for weather where it is actually appropriate to wear boots, and scarves, and cardigans.

Things I’ve learned (or relearned)

* I am definitely an introvert

* I have a really hard time going up and talking to people/making friends

* I want to push out of my comfort zone but have a really hard time doing that

* I love my Rav4

* Conferences are exhausting

* Once I get talking to someone I know I just start babbling

* That I need to be better about taking pictures and posting them to Facebook and on here.

Pictures of my car

Things you can be praying for:

* As I keep settling in that things would go smoothly

* Breaking out of my comfort zone and meeting new people

* That I would be open to the Lord’s leading in what areas I am to serve up here

* That I find someone that I can go and talk to about things even if it’s just needing to chat

* That I will find a roommate(s) and an apartment and get all those details worked out

Anywho, I think I’m going to write some recipes out now and then go out with Jessie.

I would say I’ll write more consistently but I’m not making any promises 🙂 Till next time!

Random photo that Leah sent me but I love it!

First Week in Topeka

It’s almost been two weeks since I moved. That’s not been the only change in my life, though. I’ve started a new job, bought a car, and I’m finishing my last semester of college. I’m not a person that does well with change which is why I’m still kinda shocked. Now I knew that I would buy a car one day, finish school, maybe move but I never thought that I would do all of them at the exact same time. Let me give you a rundown of the last two weeks.

Monday – Mom, Naomi, and I left my grandparents at 5am and drove up to Kansas. We got to the house around 6:30pm. Not bad timing at all and that included all our stops. I started to unload the car and put some of my stuff in place. Joe told me that my car would be delivered on Wednesday.

Tuesday – After I got everything out of the car, we three girls went to do some shopping. I had done some research for some things that I knew I would need but didn’t really want to try and find room in the van to get it up here. I had been given some gift cards to different places and was going to use those to help me finish getting settled in. Well, needless to say, my research wasn’t quite right because the two main things I wanted weren’t actually available in the Topeka store but were available in the Kansas City store. I was not going to have us drive 2 hours round trip to get the items that I really wanted when I could find perfectly acceptable replacements here in Topeka. Once I decided to find things that would work just as well we went everywhere to find the items. I was looking for a trashcan but it had to be a certain shape to fit in my room. I was also looking for a lap desk and only Bed Bath and Beyond had any. I finally found a trashcan at Dollar General that was the perfect size. By this point it was 11:30 and we decided it was late enough that we could go eat lunch. Having eaten out all of Monday, not many places sounded good to all three of us but we settled on Taco Bell.

After we ate, we drove to my new job so they could see where I would be working. They took a picture of the sign and sent it to Dad. We finally headed back home so I could finish organizing my room. I asked mom to sit in there with me so we could spend some time together before they headed out Wednesday morning. I went through my office supplies and but everything I had in little boxes into one big box except for a few essential items I would need frequently while doing school. I reorganized under my bed which I had raised. Raising the bed was a necessity because that is where pretty much everything is stored. I went through my hanging clothes and had to narrow down what needed to hang vs what could be folded because I now have about ¼ of the space that I did in my parent’s house (I am forever grateful for the hanging space that I have). All of the organizing pretty much took up the afternoon. When Joe came home from work he was actually driving my car! I was really happy that mom and Naomi got to see it before they left. We ate supper with the Hawkinson and then watched a movie before heading to bed.

Wednesday – Because of the long drive and the chance of rain, mom, and Naomi headed out around 6am for their drive home. I waved them off and then went into my room and did some school. Pretty much all of Wednesday I did school so that I could be ahead and not be stressed out. I kept in touch with mom and Naomi and they got into our grandparent’s house around 8pm I believe. Wednesday was a lot harder on me than I thought it would be. My car had been delivered on Tuesday but the mechanic needed to look it over before I could finalize the paperwork. After church, we went to the office and signed the paperwork.

Thursday – First day of work. A lot of information all at once. We did the closing of the fiscal year. Don’t remember much else

Friday – more work

Saturday – the start of a three-day weekend! I went out and did some shopping, trying to learn my way around a new town.

Sunday – went to the Chapel, ate lunch with some friends from the Chapel, and did some homework.

I’ll write about this last week in another post.

I’m also trying to take more pictures. Sorry for so few.


So I’m Moving

I accepted the administrative position. I’ve turned in my two-week notice at my current job and will be moving August 29th. I start September 1st.

I really want to just pack everything now. Just get it done but I can’t live without anything for the next three weeks. This week I am going to try and focus on finishing sorting my items and finishing little projects. Next week I’ll do some packing, starting school and finishing my last week at work. My final week will be the most intense. Completely packing, spending as much time with my family as I can and keeping my school on track. I’ll be having some friends over on Thursday and we’re going to work one last retreat that weekend before I leave on Monday.

I’ll write some more later.

A Really Long Day

When your day starts at 3:30 am and ends at 11pm (both are EST) that makes for a really long day. Oh, and when you lock you and your dad out of the car and your mom drives 30 minutes to rescue you, that just adds some great stress to the day as well.

I got to the company at 11am (CST) and shadowed/started training for the administrative job. It was a whirlwind of information and trying to understand all or most of what the job would entail. I worked with C until 1:15 and then went to lunch with two of the girls from the office. Right after I got to the office I found out that I would be shadowing for a customer support position as well. After lunch, which was at a delicious Mexican restaurant, I shadowed for the customer support position. The company sells pharmacy software and I would be supporting customers who call or email in with problems. By the time I went and talked to Mr. Springer, it was 4:15. I found out during our talk that I had scored really high on the two assessments that I had taken. We talked some about the pros and cons of each position, that the support position would require a two-year commitment and the front desk requires that if I were to leave I just have to wait to my replacement is found and trained.  I appreciated that he didn’t try and give me the rose colored glasses view but looked at my assessments and would say, “you know, this could be a hard part of the job for you.” I told him I would give him an answer Monday or Tuesday. And he said that would be great.

Once I left the office, I followed Joe home where we hung out until it was time to leave for supper that we were having at one of the elder’s houses. Supper went well and we talked (okay they talked and I was trying not to fall asleep 🙂 ). This was the same elder’s house that had a basement apartment but it is no longer available for me to rent. They do have a bedroom upstairs where I would have my own bathroom but I would be sharing the kitchen with the couple.

At this point, I’m just trying to process everything and figure out what position to take. My first inclination is to take the job that offers more money. Not because I like that job better but because it offers more. But I don’t know that I would be happy with that position. I had already worked out that I could live off the position that offered less and honestly I’m leaning towards that position.


Boy, a lot can happen when you don’t communicate.

I have three best friends-

Rebekah – I’ve known her for years through camp but our friendship has really blossomed in these past years. We’ve worked at the camp together and then we got Anna to work at camp.

Anna – I met her at church. She was quiet, shy and I did most of the talking. As Rebekah and I got to know Anna and got her working at camp, she is so not that quiet girl that I had first met.

Naomi – I’m not sure I would have ever said that my little sister was one of my best friends. We, of course, had the sibling rivalry that a lot of siblings have growing up, but as annoying as she can be at times life would definitely be not quite as bright nor a loud 🙂 if she wasn’t in mine.

Through this job opportunity, I had a break of communication with one of my best friends.

Needless to say, we both let our feelings get hurt and all because we both knew that me moving would change things. Not working at the retreat we always work together, not being able to go bowling and then go sit at Wendy’s and talk and not being close enough to be there by one’s side when tragedy strikes.

I’m thankful for a friend that thinks that our friendship is worth the tough talks. That even when we fail to communicate, when we’ve made up we can continue on and move past hurts.

My best friends have been part of what has shaped me these past years. I’ll write more on my best friends later but wanted to write this post so that I remember that I must communicate.

Distance means so little when friendship means so much.